Tell me: How can one MISS someone SO MUCH that they have yet to meet in person? How can one love so deeply this same 'someone' they have yet to meet, that their heart aches to hold this little one in their arms?! I love this sweet girl with all my heart and this week I am really, really, really missing her!
I love you, Khloe Mei!!
"For though I am far away from you,
my heart is with you...."
~COLOSSIANS 2:5 (TLB)
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Awww, she is precious. I can see why you'd be longing to hold her in your arms. That's your mother's love coming through already! i hope it's not too much logner!
She is beautiful and her smile is so contagious! (See New Day's Wordless Wednesday for Faces of Khloe). I can only imagine how your arms ache to hold her today not in a few weeks or in a few months. I will be praying for what one adoptive mom prayed for and received recently, "supernatural bonding." I pray that so much for you because sometimes it takes time and grieving on their part which is hard for me to swallow, and yet I understand. My heart wants you to be able to cuddle and love on her and pour over her like I know you long to do!
I recently heard a story that has stuck with me all week and that I hope to do a post about, but I'll share it with you now in hopes that it gets you through one more day a little easier.
There was once a little boy in Africa that wanted so much to bring his teacher a gift. But he had no money. So he walked 2 days to the coast to get a handful of sand. And then he walked 2 days back home. When he presented his gift to his teacher he was overjoyed and amazed by it. "The walk was so far he said!" And the little boy replied, "The journey is part of the gift."
As you wait and are drawn close to God in the good, the bad, the test of patience know that it is all part of the gift Tayna. God is preparing your heart and taking you on a path with His perfect timing. Blessings!
I love what Valerie said. It's true, there are so many blessings in the wait too. She is just so precious. New Day's blog this morning is quite the day brightener!!!
I pray that everything comes together for you quickly so that sweet little face can be smiling up at you soon!
Hugs,
Diana
I'm with ya Tanya!
And just look at those little expressions on ND's blog! OH MY! She is a DOLL BABY!
Any word on being DTC?
Soon, very soon, and each day is one day closer to our kiddos.
My kids are close to the age of Evan, so when I see them playing, Evan is missing. Seeing that gives me a moment in time to thank the Lord for His goodness and refining fire.
The Lord is continually weaving your heart with Khloe and your love growing each day for her as you cover her in prayer.
Soon..just think, this time next year, she will have been woven into your family for several months already!
Oh goodness, I'm crying. This is such a sweet post. I can't imagine how you must be feeling. God Speed.
I know the EXACT same feeling you are talking about...and I'm along way from being matched!!! It's hard being half a world away from our little ones, but SOON she will be home with you...and what a day of rejoicing that will be!!!
I so understand where you are coming from. From the moment I laid eyes on Mylee and Drew, my heart has ached to get them home and in my arms.
Your day will come as will mine, we just need to keep reminding ourselves that His timing is perfect and when He is ready to unite our children with their families, He will do just that.
Hugs,
Mandi
Oh Tanya, my heart aches for you. I hope and pray that this waiting time goes by quickly and that sweet Khloe is in your arms soon!
xoxo
Awww...this brought tears to my eyes thinking of how you must be missing your little Khloe, even though you've never officially met. The love of a mother is a gift from God, and certainly a force to be reckoned with. It overflows and ignites a passion that sometimes is impossible to contain when there's separation between a mother and child. I will pray God will comfort and hold you in His arms until the day you can hold little Khloe in yours! In Him, Angie :)
I know I've already posted one comment here today, but I've been playing Valerie's story over in my mind all morning--possibly because I dragged 3 kids under the age of 4out in the rain so I could ship off a package to Cora. As I stood in line to ship the box off to her, I was longing for the day I get to send a package to my DAUGHTER and I started thinking about the journey. What I feel that God was trying to show me is that the journey to our children is HIS gift to US and that we should cherish it. It is a "re-inactment" of His journey to us. As anxiously as we wait to hold our babies...He was every bit as anxious to adopt us into His family!!! While the waiting is hard, it's an opportunity for us to gain a little bit better of an understanding about His love for His children. Hope this sheds some new light on things...it helped me. :)
my friend, i don't know how it can be but it can. i felt the same exact feelings you are feeling now. that time will come, those dreams do come true! the wait can be so hard but how sweet it will be when you are holding her in your arms!
((hugs)),
kim
You have some great blogging friends....what a great bunch of comments!!! :)
I know EXACTLY what you mean. It is certainly a very strange thing to miss someone so totally even though you have never even met them! But, God has given you a love for Khloe, and it continues to grow every single day- what an amazing thing that is.
I LOVED the pics of her on New Day's blog today. You've got a little TREASURE waiting for you in China.
I think I've asked this before, but where are you in the process and what's the timeline? I'm praying it is SOON......
Oh I so remember that feeling. Hang in there.
Beautiful post Tanya.....all this waiting and longing has purpose and will only make the moment you finally see your sweet Khloe face to face, and hold her in your arms that much sweeter. The ache, as hard as it is at times, is daily confirmation from God, He has shown you your daughter, and you carry her in your heart until you are united in His perfect timing.
Love you!
Tam
Oh, I know EXACTLY how you feel. There were days when my heart would literally ache.... the waiting is SO hard.
But at least you can rest easy at night, knowing that Khloe is at New Day! :)
Are you DTC? :)
I know EXACTLY how you feel. I am missing my Ashlyn desperatly!
Tanya, I'm an emotional wreck right now and all of your dear friend's comments have already said everything so poignantly I just can't come up with anything else to say- other than know that you are on my heart and I am praying for you.
~Kelly
It is the miracle of adoption- so much like the miracle of birth- we fall in love with our children before we even have them.
It is so wonderful that the Lord prepares our heart for these special little children- no matter how they arrive!
I have felt the same way.
Your daughter is beautiful! Such a blessing already!
Can't wait for you to have her in your arms. She is so, so darling!!!
I TOTALLY understand that feeling...the ache was so palpable while waiting for Both Ravenna and then Georgia. It is a beautiful thing as the Lord has knit Khloe into your heart already. Use that bond as a reminder to pray for her and every little detail of this process. For me I felt like I could stand before the Lord while holding that ache in my heart and claim His promise that the Holy Spirit will interceed when we do not have the words or know what to pray.
Hang in there because as soon as you see her it WILL go away and be replaced with unspeakable joy!!!!
Hi, I'm new to your blog but I have shared in your hearts aching before. 9 years ago, we adopted a little girl from Russia and as we waited, our hearts ached for our little princess. Oh how all of the emotions flooded back to me as I read this amazing post. Keep holding on, one day she will be in your arms precious mother. God will give you the desires of your heart.
From a kindred spirit,
Sonya Lee
Isn't it amazing how much you can feel for a child that you've never held?
I so often find myself paralleling "our" parenting & God's parenting of us. HE loves us that SAME way. That on fire, contagious, crazy love - HE FEELS THAT FOR US.
I stand in awe.
Yes, I know your Crazy Love for Khloe and pray for the day when you are TOGETHER!
THEN, the journey can truly begin :)
Until then, Worship in the Waiting.
Oh Tanya...I do know how you are feeling! Know that as soon as she is in your arms, all the waiting will have seemed like a "blip" in time. Crazy I know, but it's true! Doesn't take away the ache NOW though! I'm praying for you!
Blessings,
Jenn
Oh I know how your heart is aching for this precious child. I pray for her every single solitary day and I just know she is coming home soon! Very soon!
She is simply darling! Those huge adorable eyes are something else!
Jill xx
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